for some reason, the first two weeks here were impossible. i was struggling–with the adjustment i suppose, because what else would it be with? but now, after making a conscious decision to move on from whatever was holding me back and be happy with everything my life has presented me, i am feeling so much better, so much more complete, so much more whole. i want to be happy, don’t we all?
that doesn’t mean things are perfect. of course they aren’t. there are still things that happen each and every day that bother me, that i hate, that i would like to undo and suck back into the unknown but it is moving past those moments that i am striving for. there is so much more to come.