rainbow lights, like stars in the sky.
but just pretend.
a bent head, elbows on knees. hand on the back.
tears running, chasing each other, racing down.
when i lifted my head, the salt was in my mouth. it felt like the tears had fallen out like words but that was the funny part…
the tears couldn’t have come where the words come from because they were there instead of the words.
don’t you see? this is just pretend.
the air became too big for my weak, scarred lungs.
whispers on the wind, twisting into one with the music. whispers to someone (something?) i barely know.
is this just pretend?
i could blink and pinch and cry but this is what i know:
pretend is just another word for before the end.