i have this theory. let’s call is the distance emotion decrease. this theory is the belief that when you are away from those you love for a long period of time and by a great distance, you down play their importance to you. you bury memories and pull to the surface negativity and blame, all in an effort to make it hurt less that you’re away from them for who knows how much longer.
and then when you’re together you realize you were being insane and vow to never do that again, to never again down play what they mean to you and what you’ve been through, to never let little things become big, but here’s the truth: you do it again. you can’t help it. humans do anything to stop the pain.